my fathers and my blessings

Gone through a bit of a rough time the past couple weeks.  The new year brought unpleasant surprises.  But a few things have shone more brightly than before or at least in new ways. Through this time of pain and tears my earthly father has expressed that his heart breaks to see mine broken.  In my shallow belief in God's sovereignty I begin to wonder what God is doing, why He would choose something for me that just hurts.  But in a deeper understanding of who God is, my dad's heart for me reminded me that if my father on earth could hurt to see me hurt, how much more perfectly does my Father in heaven love me.  He is good in His love all the time and whatever He chooses for me His motives and desires are never just to see me struggle.  He has a great purpose and cares for me even more than my dad.  I tend to be more theologically sound in my thoughts of God- which is good, but I sometimes miss out on the relationship side of my relationship with God.  Grateful for both my Daddys and their tender hearts towards me.  I hope to understand God's heart for me even more.